Success

“Even though my efforts at times might seem small, if they are sincere, then success is certain. In the past, I was plagued by fears that small steps weren’t enough, and that doing my best wasn’t good enough. Those fears hindered my performance and invalidated my self-esteem. I needed to change the messages I gave myself in order to reap the harvest of rewards that were available to me. I have needed to accept that I can’t change the messages that others have given me. I needed to change the messages I give myself in order to become freer and less self-destructive. I surround myself with positive/ high vibration people who validate all of me. I can remind myself today that the “small steps” I had the courage to take reaped large rewards.” 🐝💕🐾✌🏽️🌻🎶

 

Just Being REAL…

6/101

I fell asleep almost as soon as I closed my eyes. I was exhausted at the end of the day yesterday. I was up again at 6:00 a.m. and here at work by 645. The only thing on my mind is Dottie. There is NOTHING else more important that her right now. NOTHING!!! When Paul goes on and on about how much she loves him ( which she does) it just bugs me. She is MY baby. He was able to be with her when I could not be yesterday and that made my heart hurt (that I could not be there) and it also made me grateful that she could have a visit and feel safe. Paul said, that the doctor said, that maybe she could come home today. Paul went on to say that he said, to the doctor that maybe she should stay- in case her sugar goes haywire again and we can’t reach him or have her seen. Immediately, I got defensive– thinking he was selfish, because he just wants to do what he wants us to do this weekend and blah blah blah…He does want what is best for her, yet i do not think he understands my money situation and how much I want to be there for my baby and care for and help my baby. I miss her with every single cell in my body and would never put my “wants” before her well-being…He just pisses me off sometimes, because he is needy and thinks he knows everything and talks out of his ass a lot. It is up to the doctor and it depends on her needs and if I can meet them. Aside from all that I am drained. I am still feeling like a stop watch and am like tick tick tick…My head goes from one place to another. I do have work to do today, while i am here at work and that will help to focus me. I have no clients to see– which is good– just paperwork that is time sensitive– so again that is good. I made an effort to meditate and stretch when I got in and I was unsuccessful… My mind was just too “all over the place.” I did eat last night at the diner. I had a Chicken Ranch Wrap on a Pita vs. a Tortilla and I had some onion rings. Other than that it was just an apple and a kind bar all day. I was determined to eat vs. let my head play with me. It was echoing “don’t eat until Dottie can or does.” Freaking eating disorder–it’s a disgusting dis-ease and I am 100% committed to not ever letting it rule my life again. I told on it and it shut up or at least whispered and was not overly intrusive yesterday. I’m also mindful of my habit of pushing stuff down and saying “oh i’m fine” all the while believing that I am and then crashing or getting sick. I commit to checking in with myself daily and really being true to myself and those that care about me. This morning I made myself a Coconut Oil, Coco and Almond Milk Espresso (LARGE) and I packed cashews and an iced tea to hold me thru the morning. I’m so anxious to see how she did through the night and pray with all my heart that she can come home today or at very least that I can get to hold her– like Paul did yesterday when he visited her.. for a “whole hour”– asshole!!!! It was like he has to be this hero, not that he is doing something good… I don’t know– it could be me and my underline lack of trust that nobody does anything for just the good of the deed.. It is like sometimes– look at me, how good I am, how much I do for you– all in a passive way– Keeping score all the while. WTF? Why am I tripping on this now… I am aggravating myself, yet I need to get it out I guess. Anyway.. I just wanted to keep my intention and to write and get my crap out. My neck and back are aching and my vision is blurry this morning. I constantly, feel like I have to pee and my stomach feels like I just got off of a roller-coaster. I ask God to please make my baby well, to grant me strength and courage and the ability to meet her needs. I ask for grace in my actions and in my thoughts and I humbly ask God to forgive me when my humanness sours my behaviors. Like my dad, I believe I always mean well–sometimes I fall short, yet my heart truly wants peace & harmony. I think I am going through a growth spurt. I don’t like it, still I am open. Be 💞🐾✌️🌻🚫🐄💩

Ok With Me

Ya know.. sometimes, I wonder if people truly have a problem with me –BEING ME…then I think to myself…do I really care or have a problem with others having a problem with me? Answer: NOPE—As long as I’m good with God and I can look my pup in the eye and I show respect for myself, honor my mom and my dad’s memory — that’s all that really matters to me!! I will remain fearless in the face of changing times. I will continue to make it my daily intention to be humble and kind!

🐝💕🐾✌🏽️🌻🎶

3D to 5D ( NOT MY WORDS) ✌🏽️SHARING THEM

“Do you realize that your reality completely changes and dramatically improves when you allow your conscious participation with creation to shift from a Third Dimensional Reality to a Fifth Dimensional Reality?

It’s really true.

And while this kind of dynamic, inter-dimensional shift of consciousness is not a simple, immediate or easy task…

Which is why so many of us are still locked up in challenge and struggle…

…and also why so many individuals on the path of awakening are often so misunderstood….

Honestly speaking, most humans these days have no concept that there is anything beyond their current understanding of reality.  For them, 3D living is status quo.

Moreover, for most humans still living in the 3D reality, their consciousness and perspective is still largely based in fear and powerlessness…

Fears and worries about things like money, the future, health, longevity, relationships, family matters, and questions concerning their lives are given away to chance, hope, challenge and outside forces, like the government, doctors, lawyers, bosses, corporations, healthcare systems, school systems, etc.

However, in the Fifth Dimensional reality, where consciousness prevails and The Universal Law of One is the only real law, we do have power over our reality and over our entire lives.

We have been, and continue to learn how to take back our power, by healing and resolving the underlying fears, clearing up the dross and unconsciousness, owning our sovereignty and stepping into more complete consciousness.

Co-creation and Collaboration really helps too!

As we realize our creative potential, and begin to align with the highest vibrational energies of reality, we no longer live in fear and and instead, come to absolutely know that we have total and complete power over our reality..and that we hold the keys to effectively co-creating a healthier, happier planet.

This requires some reprogramming on each of our parts.

But I can say this with absolute certainty:

We are here to Positively Influence, Transform, Direct

and Lead the Future of Humanity into a New Era based on Unity Consciousness!

It is why we have come come here to planet earth at this time…

…together as a Collective Earth Family in a Unified Field of Dimensional Reality.

 We are a powerful group of Masters of LOVE and Light in human form.

And it is time for us to take the lead in this worldwide shift, rather than sitting and passively waiting for it to come about…

We must be willing to do the work…to give up our attachments to our lower density consciousness, the ‘take a pill and fix it fast’ illusion, and all of our current belief systems which have been holding us back and keeping us stuck.

We must be willing to move beyond the limitations of our egoic identities and instead, charge ahead toward our still not fully recognized greatness.

We are each working on our own unique parts of this hodge-podge of rejoining the collective by resolving our own inner issues, healing ourselves and coming back into balance with our knowingness. 

For the highly conscious, awakening beings out there, for those of us who are already operating within a unified field of one-ness and non duality, living in alignment with our true divine nature, authentically on purpose….we know that there is something much better, much greater, much more magnificent, than the current, widely accepted ‘norm’ of three dimensional living.

And we will never again accept anything less.

And we truly desire and know that all others can experience this kind of magnificence as well…

And we desire it for them…

For those of us in the ‘know’, we are already experiencing life in an entirely new way…and while we recognize that many others are still experiencing their reality in the old, outmoded, 3D way of lack, limitation, poverty, illness, struggle, etc., we also KNOW that each and every person will be joining us, here NOW, relatively soon.

It’s time to re-member and LIVE YOUR BEST LIFE EVER by applying  the sacred mechanics of universal, Wisdom and LOVE into all of your earthly reality, which will in turn create the foundation required for you to thrive as a 5th dimensional BEing in a 3d dimensional world.”

Ice Cream for Breakfast!💜

If you asked them, my children would say they want a can of frosting for breakfast. Or the cake under it. Or, at minimum, the ice cream served alongside. The first two are absolutely out of the question. But that last morning mealtime fantasy? I’ve figured out a way to indulge it.In truth, breakfast ice cream is more or less a frozen smoothie. Think: frozen chunks of fruit, icy cubes of dairy or nut milk and a bit of added sweetness. But instead of blending it into a drink to be slurped through a straw, it’s whipped into a frenzy in a food processor, served in a bowl and eaten with a spoon. To the child in all of us, it’s an indulgent dream made real: ice cream 

ON THIS DAY…

On this day of your life, I believe God wants you to know…
…that your life has very little to do with what occupies
most people’s “day-to-day” experience.

The purpose of your life is to express and experience

who you are. That is, to know yourself as an aspect

of the Divine. There are a thousand ways to do that

every day.

Look for the most exciting way for you to do it today.

What do you think it might be?